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posted on Tuesday, December 6, 2011 @ 6:22 PM | back to the top.
Symbol of the love. Our love story .
" At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone, and just walk away. It's not like you are giving up, and it's not like you did not try. It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be. " Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we sleep? We whisper the words in the dark, telling ourselves that we're happy, or that he/she is happy, that people will eventually change their minds. We try to feel better by reminding ourselves that we can live without the people that have left. Each night before we fall asleep, we lie to ourselves in the hope that comes morning, it will all be true... posted on Monday, November 21, 2011 @ 7:08 PM | back to the top.
Ajal & Maut, Allah Yang Tentukan.
 Dad, what if i have to go for dialysis in the future? Mum, what if I needed a minor operation? Would you be angry with me for these expensive treatments? Everyone will leave this world eventually, and that I am pretty sure of. It's just a matter of when that will be. All I know is that I am not ready to face Allah yet, and also for the fact that I have not really repaid both ayah and mama countless efforts in bringing their two child up. Y'know, I want to be just like any other male persons out there; Growing up and facing countless life's hurdles, having a stable job with a stable income, able to have a house of my own with both my own family and parents living together, going back home after work for dinner with the whole family. I want to feel how it feels like having big responsibilities on my shoulders. And I long for the day I can finally tell mama & ayah that its time for them to have their deserved break and let their only son take care of them. Maybe I'm just thinking too much into it. Maybe I'm being to far-fetched into predicting what will happen in the near future, just like what ayah says. But I know, we both know, something even much more worse is bound to happen if it's not treated now. Its a fact I really cannot deny. This pain has been niggling on for the past one week and it's not getting any better. I have made up my mind to go and have a visit to the family doctor tomorrow, if the pain is still unbearable. Just like how it is right now, at this very minute. And from there, I will find out more. Regardless of whatever the condition is, if it needs be that I have to go for any sort of minor operation or even further specialist check ups, I would flatly and immediately reject that idea. Yes, I am that scared to go for an op, however minor it will be. And also, I just do not want to waste any more of ayah & mama money. I have troubled them enough throughout my 21 years of life already. Well, we all will eventually die don't we? Let's just accept it. ('= posted on Monday, October 31, 2011 @ 11:20 PM | back to the top.
Count me out.
Well, I tried my best to hold on and fight for what I'd believed in. But it's come to a point where I see no point in fighting a losing battle. As long as I know my consciences is clear, and that all I ever wanted was for the best for all, I'll walk off with my head held high. I know people condemn me for the things I do, but I wanted to show and prove to them that I can do just equally, or even better than the people who think too highly of themselves. All I needed was an opportunity, but unfortunately it wasn't given. No, I'm not giving up. Just gonna wash me hands of it, and let things take care by itself. I did the best, gave my fucking best, so I've no regrets come whatever the end result would be. Apart from that, I feel like giving it my final shot. Yes, my last & final shot. And after that, I'll be serving the nation and straight after I have to plan for my future as well. So, it seems like this would be my finale. Or perhaps, should i say my finale with them? So, don't be surprised if I walk off and say goodbye.. and see me with another group of people the next time round. Possibile? Just watch this space. Till my next post, salams. posted on Tuesday, October 18, 2011 @ 7:54 PM | back to the top.
wah! wah!
An advanced birthday gift from mama. Thank you so much, thats a first from you. And I appreciate that a lot. So goodbye Moto, and... hello Samsung!  =D posted on Tuesday, October 4, 2011 @ 12:20 AM | back to the top.
jatuh bangun, bersatu hati.
"My friends are like a deck of cards, they come in kings and queens, red and black, six and seven, but if one is missing, the deck won't work...and that is friendship." When people don’t get our jokes, I don’t think of it as a “you had to be there” kind of thing, more of a “you had to be mentally retarded like us” kind of thing. (=  Stay as one y'all. It's certainly has been an honour to be friends with each of you guys. We'll meet again soon, InsyaAllah. Bila Bila ooi!  And I'm gonna miss you too. Study hard in school alright, jangan luper kan si syai ni yer! (: posted on Saturday, October 1, 2011 @ 11:56 PM | back to the top.
berakhir sudah.
 Mengapa ada dusta Tika cinta melanda sukma Tika setia diombak resah Masihkah ada bahagia Mengapa ada dia Tika rindu padamu saja Tika restu untukmu jua Akhirnya aku yang merana Mengapakah aku diluka Derita kerana sebuah cinta Yang sekian lama kita bina Inikah sumpah setiamu Terhadapku setia selalu Ke akhir hayatmu Ternyata palsu Kuterima semua ini Sudah kehendak takdir Ilahi Berakhirlah semua kini Episod cinta ini... Menjadi sebuah memori Dan jangan ada benci Tika kesal menggamit hati Tika segan menyentuh jiwa Anggaplah lumrah dunia posted on Friday, September 23, 2011 @ 2:32 AM | back to the top.
forgiven, but not forgotten
It's been exactly one year now. I'm just surprised that I'm still breathing. do you even remember? posted on Wednesday, September 14, 2011 @ 8:12 AM | back to the top.
Trauma
 ".... When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, it's the hardest thing you could ever go through. And no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. Yo may think you're getting better, but really you're just trying to make yourself believe that you are going to. And when you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, it hits you back all at once, like a stab in your chest. You fall apart again, and you just feel like wanting to crawl under a rock and never come out again. You love that person with all of your heart, they hurt you worse than you have ever been hurt. They stole your happiness, but yet. Yet, you still want them, only them. Other people come along, giving you chances to move on, but you know deep down, you don't want to. It upsets you that you have to move, because you promised you never would. And even though they'd broke all of the promises made, you still want to keep yours. But that's not what matters the most... Simply said, you're terrified. Terrified of getting hurt again. " That probably sums up the whole mess I am in now. I sincerely apologize to you, dear friend. You, yes you. As i see it, you came into my life at the wrong time, when I am still trying to pick up the pieces. I just don't wish to go through the sufferings I had. No, no more of that please. I came a freaking long way before I can slowly get back up in life, even then I am still very much haunted from my past. I do not want to jeopardize that by jumping into another shithole. You know my story. But you were not there to see those sufferings, that suicidal attempts, that I stupidly put myself into and having to go through insults after insults for the past one year just to forget that someone I love so much in the past. You're a very nice girl that I have to admit. Come to think of it, we could have been happy together by now, if I have not met that few wrong people back then which caused me to lose my trust in relationships. And you. you're just too good for me. In fact, I think a person as sweet as you are, deserves a guy who is a whole lot better than Syai. Circumstances has it that, try as I may, I am still unable to open up myself to a whole new possibilities of happiness between us. I want my next relationship with a girl to be an exciting journey together, where she will stick by me through thick and thin come what may, whom I eventually will marry, and have a happy family together. I am not up for those kind of stories that we're so accustomed to hearing nowadays, where relationships only last for a few months, weeks or even days. Label me for all I care, but that is how I value my lovelife, to be her last. Syai merancang, tapi Tuhan yang menentukan. Seandainye Dia jodohkan kiter berduer, akan pastinyer kiter bersama juga akhirnye. But for now adeq manis, I'm really really sorry. posted on Sunday, September 11, 2011 @ 3:20 PM | back to the top.
rewind back the times.
But... until when? posted on Wednesday, August 31, 2011 @ 1:05 AM | back to the top.
first day.
The one thing I look forward to on the first day of Raya.
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