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posted on Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ 12:12 AM | back to the top.
ready for the stage!
At last, after today's training.. the set is finally complete. Left with just one freaking day before we rawk that stage. In the mean time, tomorrow last training, last all out session punya .. and I have got to admit, i am really exhausted from all those trainings and preparation. dear god, give me the strength that i need to persevere these last obstacles. ~~ Amin ~~ To all of my friends, be it from Chuchus or any other groups that will be particapating this sunday, let's give it our best alright, and have fun okayy!! see you all at Anchorvale CC kawan kawan! ( kalau nampak tegur yer! =) ) Just a short update this time. I'll probably be back after the competition is over. in the mean time, take care everyone. posted on Monday, January 25, 2010 @ 11:46 PM | back to the top.
goodbye all !
Goodbye My Friends. Farewell Everyone. I'm going to move to Hamburg. I'm gonna miss you guys... =(  posted on Sunday, January 24, 2010 @ 5:14 PM | back to the top.
ding dang ding dang ding !!!
 And so, it's down to the last one week before the action begins,Piala Ilham Dipersembah 2010. I am pretty geared up for this since as of yesterday's training, we have just managed to complete the whole set, and it is left to the standardization of ragam and stuff. Will be super busy than ever, training's going to be every single day until the Sunday itself, and yeah, i guessed it means, No lepaks after school hours for me, No Gamelan practises for me (B, taqmo windu kat akuu tao! heheheh!!) and definitely reaching home late at night every single day. I just hope everything that I sacrificed for will be worth it. Amin~  So these are the sequence of group's performing and the time to report for different groups. ChuChus as you can see, are sending two teams for the competition, both the junior and the senior squad. Guess which one will the senior squad be in?? no prizes for guessing. hehehe!!The tickets are on sale now. Anyone interested to go?? Each team has to sell of at least about ten tickets each, so yeah, i need to do my part to sell off the tickets. So, to my friends, my beloved GNKs, my lepak session friends and whatnot, do come down and support me okay? =) Venue: Anchorvale CC (take bus 372 from Sengkang Inter) Time: 11am - 9pm Date: 31st January ( this sunday) Tickets: $12 each For more information, please clink on this link! i guess that's all i have to post for today. need to catch some sleep and to replenish my energy. hur hur!! take care kawan kawan!! =) posted on Wednesday, January 20, 2010 @ 10:24 AM | back to the top.
pain lah pain!
 And. My. Knee. Hurts. Like. Hell. Right. Now. it 'popped' again yesterday night. Let's see how long it's going to take me until I can walk properly again. Urggghh!!! posted on Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 2:30 PM | back to the top.
if only..
 If only i can get all 'A's throughout the whole 15 weeks of lesson, If only i can get all 'A's for all 3 UTs, If only this were my real grades and scores. I swear my dad's gonna piggyback me from my house all the way to Causeway Point, and back again. hahahahahahahahhahahaha. i wish. Formal attire tomorrow for Communication. should ii go for it? hmm.... posted on Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 12:59 AM | back to the top.
from bad to worst.
     Again, I skipped class today. Engineering design sucked to the max. I am seriously hating the faci more and more each week. Did not contribute at all during the first meeting and the second, so I see no point in staying on in class, when everything is so dead and quiet. fuck care Engineering design, and fuck care the faci! So, went off to play pool, again. This time with Rina, and her friend Shafeeqah. Now i know someone has 'cacat' fingers ehh! *inside joke* hahahahahhahaha!! But, it was fun with you guys around, especially you! thanks for the great day! :) Lastly, Sorry to Kaien and Jon, for ditching the team today. Sorry for my previous post, felt like i have offended some people. Sorry for all my wrongdoings towards you guys. and ( so not okay! ) Please forgive me. posted on Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 9:43 PM | back to the top.
gonna bare it all, right here right now.
Okay my fellow loyal readers, since today i am quite free ( no dikir training, so reached home way early today ), i guess I'll just do a proper post this time and let out my whatever feelings i am having in this space of mine here. so, bear with me alright?So, to be honest. there are hell lot of things running through my mind. but the problem is, i just dont know where to begin with. Sometimes i feel happy, and the next thing, i can be so sad that i just keep to myself. Maybe its just one of those days, where you are being bothered with a lot of things, that you just keep to yourself. Even some of my friends noticed me being very quiet in school, and i admit that too. It sucked a lot yknow, not being yourself and have all these shits in your head. Friends.. Speaking of which, I too realized that our friendship ain't as close as it used too be. I feel that i have lost just as many friends as I've gained new ones, but these are the bunch of people which i treasure most and I least expected things to turn out this way. I don't really remember what had lead to this to happen, but it sucks, big time. Usually, i have my friend to wake me up to school, to walk to school together, be it whether we were late or early for school. Usually, i have my friends to lunch together during the first break, which i really look forward to, as it will be the only time where i can be my real self, the real syai my former classmates had known me to be, and Usually, there will be the Gamelan training after school and the jokes aplenty with the same friends, as well as the walk to the Woodlands MRT station together after each Gamelan practices where we will sing and shout at the field walkway like nobody's business. Now, everything changed. No more wake up calls, no more betting of 'siaper last sampai tempat biase, blanja air coke 1.5litres eh!', no more of the familiar laughter which i've known. Now, i seldom eat during first breaks, sometimes going down alone or with my new classmates, and going to Gamelan practices and keeping to myself. I guess people changed, don't they? Everybody makes new friends, and these things happens all the time, and i guess i just have to accept it. Yes, maybe i should. maybe i should just accept how it is, and have new better friends. Maybe so. But i miss them. All of them, in fact. You, You and definitely, You. Never mind. At least i feel better after writing down these shits. Great. " When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. ~Henri Nouwen " Shattered Smile, Broken Heart.. This is something which is not new, but yeah it is still running in my head. I am a total failure. Many times have i told myself to look forward and never to reminisce about the past, and many times have i failed to do so. Here, I am talking about this one girl, just an average girl-next-door which has made a tremendous impact on my life ever since we crossed each others' path in life. I do not understand why it is so damn effing difficult for me to move on and to forget about this girl, when it looked like she is now happier than ever living her own life? Love really made a fool out of me not once, not twice, but countless of times. Many times have i felt like giving up on it, and to focus more about other important stuff. But, it will come again once in a while, and there it goes again; another vicious cycle for me, just waiting stupidly, hoping she'll take notice of me and secretly hoping they can be at least friends, like how it used to be. Yes, i admit sometimes, i get jealous when i see my friend's (couple) being so lovingly to each other. yes, great i admit to it. because sometimes i feel, why it could never happen to me? After all, i am just like any other human beings on earth, who has feelings too and wants that opportunity to love, and be loved as well. A simple song, yet it displays how i am exactly feeling all this while. check it out. " Aku hanyalah manusia biasa Yang tak pernah lepas dari khilaf Kumencoba merubah segalanya Mungkin ada kesempatan Aku juga merasa ingin dicinta Disanjung dipeluk selamanya Kalau memang kusalah berikan maaf Demi sumpah cinta yang pernah kita ucapkan " ~'manusia biasa' by radja~ Dikir Barat.. As always, i have been busy with dikir barat ever since forever. Though i am not complaining since it is something which i love to do, and have an undying passion for it. But sometimes there are just this much that I can take in, and its taking a toll on me. With the upcoming competition drawing nearer(on the 31st of January) , trainings have been real intensive and imagine how I have to rush from woodlands to Bedok and back home most of the days, and I have to juggle between school assignments, Gamelan Practices and this? As much as I do not like revealing too much about the personal stuff of my team, i guess the only way for me to vent my frustration is writing it down right here, right now. I have been in this dikir barat scene ever since I was in Sec2, with the same team up to now. And yeah, so may changes can be seen in the team, then and now. Seriously i hate how it is now. Teammates becoming more 'naik lemak' , 'keras kepala' , 'step maner nyer star aje' and many more. adding to that, that 'big boss' who have that F*** UP attitude . I had never liked him, to be honest. the way he talks, his attitudes, SUCKS BIG TIME. Ever since he took over from Tok, things became like this. And he will never have my respect, not even if he is up there in the so called 'hierarchy' rank, because to simply put it, he does not deserve it. We are just less than 3 more weeks to the upcoming comp and we are still not yet finished with the Juara set. From the looks of it, Not many are concerned about this, but I do. and some still have the cheek to come to trainings late, and the best part is they laughed and joked and do all that nonsense during training time, as if the competiton is 2 months away. And right here, right now I have to reveal that ........... many times have i considered leaving the team, to join another group. I swear that intention have crossed my mind, countless of times. But, i chose not to. Why? because akuu ni maseh jiwe samer Chuchu, dengan korang korang nii and I still remember Atok's words to us. " Kalau korang rase korang nak peng group lain, pergy. Tok tak halang. Tapi, korang kene ingat. Siape yang ajar korang korang ni, yang satu bender haram pun tak tahu tentang dikir barat, yang ajar korang aper itu tepok sepuloh, dan mana korang berada sekarang ni? ingat dari mana asal usul korang. " That's why, i have been in this team for 5 straight years and i am still with the team. because of his words. And I Don't Care About What They Are Going To Say About This As I Know There Will BE Some Chuchu's Reading This, But This Is My Freaking Space And I Write Whatever That I Want To. So Please Chuchus, whorever that might be reading this, please buck up. Everybody needs to co-operate if we want things to be done on time. "Yang Penting Bukan Dimana Kita Bermula, Tapi Dimana Kita Berakhir...." And i feel slightly better after all these shits that i have wrote down. I hope things will get better for me and for the rest of my friends after this post, insyaallah amin~ gonna have my rest now, last day of school tomorrow for the week, and then back to dikir trainings in the evening. So to my fellow readers, thank you for spending the time reading it, and I'll see you in the next post. Good night everyone. posted on @ 9:27 PM | back to the top.
tiup lilin!
 Happy Birth Of Day Adisuria Bin Abdul KhaliL !!! ehwahh.. dah besar yer anak mak nii. hahaha!! happy 20th birthday bro. semoga kau panjang umur, pendek nafas. hahaha!! umur tu dah jejak angka '20' tao, takde umur teenagers lagy. so perangai tu kenelah ubah sikit. yang penting, dah kene start pikir nak kumpul duit, nak naik pelamin. weeeee~~!!!! happy birthday my friend! okay, till here my friends. will be updating more tonight. stay tuned! (stay tuned kekape? -___-") posted on Wednesday, January 13, 2010 @ 5:42 PM | back to the top.
ponteng school!
there's two things i have to write about for now. But before that, I need to remind myself again not to skip school again. Today i did not go to school, because i was superbly lazy to wake up and i just continued to be in my dreamland until 5plus in the afternoon. nyahaha!! Today's module was Communication. I thought it will be sucha pity to skip it, because based on most of my friends, they said this week's was easy. but, i think since i have been regular in my attendance, skipping once in a while is okay, i guess? hehe!!so today is the 13th of January. ohh wait! what did ya say?? January 13th? serious shit kapa?! which means it is someone's birthday today!! hahaha!!  This is that someone who im referring about! hahaha..!!So, this friend of mine here, Safuan ( or better known as Adek ) celebrated his 22nd birthday today, and i bought him a pack of ciggies as a birthday present for him, those contraband ciggies. hehe!! Happy 22nd birthday yer Adek!! With that done, i have one more thing to post about. Okay! so yesterday was maths module. yeah, maths. pfft!! Everything was going on fine, did the worksheet the PDT and stuff and i find that the problem of the day was not that difficult after all. So when its time for the 2nd meeting break, I went for lunch. But!! when i came back, Alvin, my teammate was already gone, Leonard was packing his bag, Jerome was busy with his laptop, and Han was rushing the ppt slides, which he then told me whether i wanted to 'cabut', since the teammates are all going. He said, it was up to me to decide; if I wanted to go, he'll go as well. But if i decide to stay, he'll stay with me. So i was contemplating whether or not to stay since everyone is going. i could just stay, since the PPT slides are all done, but i can go home too, since everyone is. hahaha...!! frankly, i was in a dilemna. didnt know what to do. haish!! and so being a good student and a good friend, so this is what i did.         We went to play pool at the library's Cafe!! =) got to go now peeps! dikir training now!! tata!!~~ posted on Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 12:36 AM | back to the top.
pissed!
 For not coming down for yesterday's RP openhouse performance. I was so effing tired that i woke up at 5plus, missing the performance. and it's all dikir training fault. sheesh!! I reached home late at 6 in the morning, and i had to be in school by 9am. thought of just staying up, but i was so exhausted that the moment i reached my bed, i dozzed off. that explained why i missed the Openhouse performance. I wanted so much to play for the performance, to be a part of it. Furthermore, there was the 4Play piece, which i had been learning to play the sundanese gendang. Missing that, just adds to my dissapointment. urrrghh! to all GNKs reading this post, I am so so sorry okay. posted on Sunday, January 3, 2010 @ 8:47 PM | back to the top.
back to school!
 back to waking up early in the mornings back to squeezing in that crowded bus back to more PDTs back to more Worksheets back to more presentation slides back to even more RJs and lastly, ITS BACK TO SCHOOL! just great. and i have not even revised for my Maths UT. fail ah! fail ah! fail ah! fail ah! fail ah!fail ah! fail ah!fail ah! counting down to 5 more weeks, please oh please, just 5 more weeks. and it's the holidays again. sigh! posted on Saturday, January 2, 2010 @ 2:07 PM | back to the top.
new chapter.
     first thing first, I apologise for the quality of the pictures above as our dearest Saf had forgotten to bring her camera to the countdown. So, we had to make do with whatever we had, and took pictures using our camera, thus the quality. Ohwells. Aniway, I welcomed the new year 2010, with my best buddies, Saf and Arep at Woodlands. The intial plan was to meet Han, Mus and Steph at Hort Park, however last minute change of plan, the three of us countdown-ed at Woodlands. Ohwells, I honestly don't mind where we countdown-ed at, it's the friends i'll be with that matters. hehehe!! just like back in 2008, it was the same friends that were with me to welcome the new year back then. How do i know? cause i still have the video with me! woohoo!!~ Okay, for the past two days, I slept over at Arif's crib. Since his family is away on a holiday, he invited me over, to teman him. hahaha!! Well, I did have fun though, cause the time was spent on going out night cycling to all over Woodlands, checking out new places like the newly- built park near my place. We had fun laughing and trying out the exercise thingy, or whatever you called it. And after that, proceeded on to Crescent Park, our usual hangout, to chill with Saf and Arep. The next day of night cycling, we went to 'Teletubbies' at 1 in the morning. There, we chilled, and yeah, we sang as loud as we could there, since there was no one around. haha..! yeah, those pictures were taken over there, a great place for anyone living in Woodlands to chill, breathe in fresh air, and just enjoy the scenery. And Finally! i'm back home after two days. Am so tired right now, that i could sleep anytime soon, but the irony is, I have dikir training today, and if i were to sleep now, chances are, I wont be going for training since i'll probably sleep the whole day. Sigh!! This is my life, everyone. Always busy with dikir barat. hahaha!! okay, i shall end here now, need to get changed and get out of the house in a while. CHAOS PEOPLE! BOO!! CHAK!! SURPRISE AREP, you're caught on camera!! hehehehe!! =D |
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