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 People don't keep journals for themselves. They keep them for other people, like a secret they don't want to tell, but they want everyone to know. I don't own any of these pictures unless I state them. All photos and quotes on this blog are the properties of the respectful owners.Anyone wishing for their works to be credited please contact me via formspring or the tagboard itself. thank you. |
posted on Friday, September 23, 2011 @ 2:32 AM | back to the top.
forgiven, but not forgotten
It's been exactly one year now. I'm just surprised that I'm still breathing. do you even remember? posted on Wednesday, September 14, 2011 @ 8:12 AM | back to the top.
Trauma
 ".... When you lose someone, someone you love, when they break your heart, it's the hardest thing you could ever go through. And no matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. Yo may think you're getting better, but really you're just trying to make yourself believe that you are going to. And when you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory, it hits you back all at once, like a stab in your chest. You fall apart again, and you just feel like wanting to crawl under a rock and never come out again. You love that person with all of your heart, they hurt you worse than you have ever been hurt. They stole your happiness, but yet. Yet, you still want them, only them. Other people come along, giving you chances to move on, but you know deep down, you don't want to. It upsets you that you have to move, because you promised you never would. And even though they'd broke all of the promises made, you still want to keep yours. But that's not what matters the most... Simply said, you're terrified. Terrified of getting hurt again. " That probably sums up the whole mess I am in now. I sincerely apologize to you, dear friend. You, yes you. As i see it, you came into my life at the wrong time, when I am still trying to pick up the pieces. I just don't wish to go through the sufferings I had. No, no more of that please. I came a freaking long way before I can slowly get back up in life, even then I am still very much haunted from my past. I do not want to jeopardize that by jumping into another shithole. You know my story. But you were not there to see those sufferings, that suicidal attempts, that I stupidly put myself into and having to go through insults after insults for the past one year just to forget that someone I love so much in the past. You're a very nice girl that I have to admit. Come to think of it, we could have been happy together by now, if I have not met that few wrong people back then which caused me to lose my trust in relationships. And you. you're just too good for me. In fact, I think a person as sweet as you are, deserves a guy who is a whole lot better than Syai. Circumstances has it that, try as I may, I am still unable to open up myself to a whole new possibilities of happiness between us. I want my next relationship with a girl to be an exciting journey together, where she will stick by me through thick and thin come what may, whom I eventually will marry, and have a happy family together. I am not up for those kind of stories that we're so accustomed to hearing nowadays, where relationships only last for a few months, weeks or even days. Label me for all I care, but that is how I value my lovelife, to be her last. Syai merancang, tapi Tuhan yang menentukan. Seandainye Dia jodohkan kiter berduer, akan pastinyer kiter bersama juga akhirnye. But for now adeq manis, I'm really really sorry. posted on Sunday, September 11, 2011 @ 3:20 PM | back to the top.
rewind back the times.
But... until when? |
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