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posted on Monday, March 28, 2011 @ 8:04 PM | back to the top.
fyp come first.
 So UT3 results are out. Alhamdulilah, I have got to say that I'd did better in all the previous semesters that has gone. Looks like there are at least some positive things that happened after all this aye? I did managed to push up the GPA grade, but just. Nevertheless, I am happy to see the module grade for all 5 subjects and I aim to take this as a stepping stone to keep improving and pushing up my grades for the final 2 semester that I am left. InsyaAllah, got no time left, have to buck up! Coming into my fifth week to the Final Year Project that I'm assigned to now, and I got to say that I'm able to cope fairly well with the demand and pressure that comes with it. Having teammates which are generally smarter makes it a challenge personally to meet to their expectations and standard. And so, it's the same routine every single weekdays now; going to Changi Airport Terminal 1 early in the morning, back home by the evening and then getting ready the report for the next day, every single day. I kind of like the busy schedule I'm having surprisingly. It seemed as though I'm entering into the adult working world, but without the pay of course! Furthermore we're given the airport pass, though not the seasonal one, so we can go in and out the transit area as and when we like! kire macam tourist lah kan masuk dalam. Hehehe.. On a side note, chuchu is confirmed entering the Piala KGMS competition which is not far off now. And yeah, I've explained to Tok that I will be busy with my FYP and that I might not be able to commit to this competition. And all I got was a simple 'OKAY.' from him. Hmmmm... Well so yeah, Looks like this might finally be the time I have to break my own 'personal achievement' of playing for every competitions that chuchu has been in, up there on stage. Hahaha, see how luh kan. With all those 'hoo-haa' that has been going around internally, I guess maybe it's time for me to take a step back, and see how it goes. But I will definitely come down to trainings once in a while, to help out and contribute to ideas to my fellow 'brothers'. Yeah, 'brothers'.... Alright, I guess that's all I have to rant about today. Need to start continue my report log and get ready for tomorrow's report. Be in the best of health, everyone. Salams. (= posted on Thursday, March 24, 2011 @ 6:26 PM | back to the top.
sorry? its okay. =)
All it tooks to make me feel happy even if it lasted just for a few minutes. Gosh! It's been months and yet, I still get butterflies in my stomach whenever it happens. I can't stay mad at you for long aniway, so you dont really have to go to that extent, but thank you. Can I have that again, pretty please? I'll be waiting. Syukur, Ya Allah! (= posted on @ 3:48 AM | back to the top.
i hate you!
,br> And right now, i really feel like shoutting at the top of my voice and let this overwhelming anger out of me. i dont want to have to move to another new blog just so i can have my own space. But if i have to, i will. posted on Wednesday, March 23, 2011 @ 12:16 AM | back to the top.
the 6th.
' Here's to the kids who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone. Who spend hours reading random love quotes to find the perfect one that fits, who wait online for that one certain person to sign in just to say hello, Who listen to the same song over and over and over again just because the lyrics means alot, Who deserve so much more than they get and are willing to fight for it... And whose wish upon a shooting star was wasted on someone that will never care.' Awaq, remember what exactly took place exactly 6 months ago? But despite all that, and 6 months later, there is still no one that could replace you. Just thought you should know. I really hope whatever that I'd heard about you, it's absolutely not true at all. I don't like feeling that you have completely changed, though i'm in no position to do anything about it. Just remember where you came from and who your true friends are. Just don't make a decision, without thinking of the consequences later on okay. I know you still read this space of mine here, please take good care of your health okay. hope you're doing good for your preparations for the Os. Salams awaq. I'm truly sorry if all of these irritates you. )'= posted on Saturday, March 19, 2011 @ 12:38 PM | back to the top.
happy happy birthday!
 Happy 15th lil' sisto! a year older now, hope you'll enjoy your special day today. Best wishes from me to you! :) posted on Thursday, March 17, 2011 @ 11:40 PM | back to the top.
i wished.
posted on Tuesday, March 15, 2011 @ 10:12 PM | back to the top.
stay or to go?
Is there any such thing as a 'one-club man' anymore ? or simply said, is there anyone who values 'loyalty' is this world, still? Say, you have been with this cliques of friends for a few years now, everything seems so fun and great initially that you dont mind meeting 'em all once every few weeks because you'll just love the company. And then suddenly you realised one by one, every single one of them starts to have a change of behaviour, having their own personal 'clique' within the group itself and you feel the distances between these friends growing as days goes by. So, what will you actually do in this sort of situation ? Leave 'em... or stay with them? Had it not been for this one particular man, who I have always seen as a leader, a mentor and the one that I looked up to, I would have left these friends a looooong time ago. For the fact that I would not be where I am now had it not been for him, Im still with these people because of the fact I am one loyal guy. Uh uh. I kind of missed how close we were all back then, even though we had nothing to our name. And it's saddening to see that we're slowly changing, be it knowingly or unknowingly, as everyone's busy with their respective lives. Which I can't really blame though, as much as how I wished things would not have changed it is something we have no control of. And i swear I just do not know why i have been having these thoughts lately, and it has been going on and on for a few days now. It feels so wrong to be playing around with thesee thoughts but it felt somewhat good at the same time. Now, the question is do I follow my heart and go or to stay? that's something I have no answer to, and I am still searching for it. Having said that, I still have that respect and love to this 'group of people' that I'm lucky to have known for these 5, 6 years. I just hope everyone wakes up and see that we can actually do much much better and make this friendship last till the end. I'm tired of seeing the same attitude over and over again every single time we meet up. Please, do something about it. I really do not want to go over the same routine every single time. We need to change, or I will have to go. posted on Sunday, March 13, 2011 @ 4:37 AM | back to the top.
hate this part right here.
 posted on Wednesday, March 9, 2011 @ 11:22 PM | back to the top.
could have been 10th.
You know what's the saddest thing in the world? When you see two people in love, the kind of love where people write novels about. The whole "you're my other half" and "you're all I ever think about" kind of love. The kind of love where all you want to do for the rest of your life is to wake up to your partner's beautiful smile. This kind of love where your heart feels so big and full that you're afraid that it can burst any moment. Yeah, that's it. That kind of love. The saddest thing in the world is when you see those two people, months or years later, and they cannot even look each other in the eye. You probably think that I have already forgotten about by you by now, but that's far from it, really. I'd missed you every waking day, and truthfully my heart still hurts, but I am getting better now. I will just continue to smile and still go on without you. I do still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you're doing, what we used to talk about, you and me laughing on the phone till the wee hours in the morning. Just, everything. I kinda miss it all. You may feel that parting was the best for us, because like you said, everything happens for a reason. I'm still trying to accept that fact, though at the back of my mind I do hope about the impossible. Should destiny puts us into a crossing road in the future, that will then be the day I will get to see you again. And until then, I hope you will realise that no matter what happens back then in the past; even through the arguments, the disagreements, the mistakes and the tears you and I have cried, never have i for once, gave up on you. On us. So if you ever need a helping hand, along the way, I may be far away, but I will always be in reach. Awaq, it could have been our 10th together, today. ='( posted on Monday, March 7, 2011 @ 12:39 AM | back to the top.
and it all came back tonight.
Today, one of my dikir friend texted me. We were initially talking about few random stuffs when suddenly it became that topic. I was trying to avoid it, but it was useless. And it hurts to know some stuff that I didnt expect. And this text message really hit me hard; "Look, I strongly believe everything happens for a reason. And I believe if you guys are meant for each toher, you guys will be together. You are putting yourself in a spot when your daily life sucks without her by your side. Have you ever thought of how she is? She don't even think about you Syaiful. What more, I dont even think she cares for you. It's been months syaiful, MONTHS. How long are you going to continue like this? You're not giving yourself a chance to enjoy life as it is." Yes it hit me hard, totally. I dont need anyone to tell me those things that I have noticed for myself way back. I know she does not care about me anymore, and I know it has been months. And I've got no one to blame but myself for being trapped in this shithole. So, what do I have to do to really forget about her then? I really am not sure. I have done almost every possible thing that I could to get her out of my mind, so what's left for me to do? My friend advice me to stop thinking about her, that's the first step towards moving on. I tried though, and Im still trying. I'm not asking you to be how we were before, it's just that this silence is killing me a little bit more every single day. Probably, there is no more 'syai' in your life by now, but I just hope you know that just one day.... we'll get to talk. I dont think it's too much to ask for, is it? Just y'know, update about life and all, just so I know how you're doing over there and not having to keep wondering. Aaaah, fuck this. I don't think you drop by any longer, you're too busy enjoying life to even care about someone from your past anyway, right? Maybe, its just me. Maybe I just fell for the wrong girl. I don't know. I cant deny I'm still very much in love with that girl, up till today. Judge me all you want, I won't deny this feelings Im having deep inside. And I freaking miss her, a lot. You may have given up on me back then, I'm not going to give up on us that easily. Janji yang dilafazkan harus dipegang. Selagy nadi belum terhenti, Syai akan tetap bertahan. salams. posted on Saturday, March 5, 2011 @ 11:34 PM | back to the top.
Unic.
Demi Cinta Suci Pernah Hatiku Luka Pedih Kerna Dicalari, Cinta Penuh Duri... Lemas Aku Dalam Dilemna Kata Janji Manis Sungguh Tak Bermakna... Mencarimu Kasih Bagai, Mencari Mutiara Putih Walau Ke Dasar Lautan, Sanggup Ku Selami... Namun Tak Percaya Apa Yang Telah Aku Terjumpa, Kau Sebutir Pasir Tak Berharga... Demi Cinta Yang Suci Ku Rela Korbankan, Kepentingan Diri... Demi Sinar Bahagia Ku Hambakan Diri Pada-Nya Yang Esa... Baru Kini Ku Rasai Nikmatnya Cinta Yang Suci, Tiada Terbanding Dengan Cinta Yang Kau Beri... Ranjau Yang Berduri Akan Aku Tabah Menempuhnya, Menyubur Iman Di Dalam Jiwa... Demi Cinta Hakiki, Ku Sanggup Redhai Apa Yang Terjadi... Apalah Erti Cinta Suci, Andai Janji-Janji Sering Dimungkiri... Apalah Erti Cinta Murni, Andai Kata-Kata Sering Didustai... posted on Thursday, March 3, 2011 @ 12:55 AM | back to the top.
R44OE YO!
There's this saying that goes something like, " All good things will have to come to an end... " And the time has come for me to bid you farewell. You have served me well over the few years or so my friend. So, goodbye my Lenovo. I will remember you, always.  And say hello to... Mr Samsung. (=  So dad bought me this since the Lenovo is already spoilt beyond repair. It was time for a change since the lappy is already a few years old. It was initially for Home use purpose, and ever since I got into RP after graduating from ITE, it became my OWN lappy. Obviously, I am happy and thankful that I got a new laptop today, but at the same I felt really bad because... knowing how the current situation is for the family, any extra expenses would be particularly tough on dad. I was left with no choice though, I need a working laptop for school purposes, and furthermore the FYP project requires me to bring along my laptop wherever I go, it was definitely more of a 'need' than a 'want' for a new lappy. Precisely why I chose the cheapest available laptop that I could find over in Courts that I dont mind the specifications nor the brands. I immediately chose this one when the sales promoter said that it is among the cheapest and within the budget and it is definitely suitable for school use. Just days before I had to trouble dad to shop for officewear attire for my FYP project. I'm not too sure know if 70bucks for the one whole set of shirt, pants, to the belt and the shoes is considered cheap though, and now... a new laptop? tell me how am I not supposed to feel bad then? Ohwells, this has made me even more stressed up than i already am with my FYP projects and stuff. Dad has 'invested' a hell lot of money for me, what if I fail him at the end of the day? Thank you dad, for wasting your money on me. Now... I cannot promise you that I would be the brightest student and score the highest GPA among all at the end of my Poly Life because I need to be realistic after all. But what I can and will promise you is that, I will do my best for this FYP project, and then get that diploma at the end of my time in Poly. Thanks dad, really. Thank you. posted on Tuesday, March 1, 2011 @ 12:36 AM | back to the top.
this is it.
Well, I thought of updating Puncak Finals result but... ohwells forget it. A lot of my friends updated me about the competition, and I gotta say that I wasnt that really surprised at the overall results. Looking at the videos, I gotta say Keris set was really superb. Needless to say, Keris was simply.. 'em at their best. Something refreshing and unique. Maybe that's my only regret for missing out on watching and being there on the competition. Well, I thought they deserved the 1st place, in my honest opinion. But ohwells, 2nd placing is not that bad though so congratulations to the KM family and as well as Aidil, for achieving the Juara terbaik. The surprise of the day has got to be Kelana Purba. Surprise surprise.. Andika? Krakatoa? I'm not too sure what happened though, but it just goes to show something isnt it? That sometimes, shit happens. Even so, I guess it'll just be a one-off thingy and im sure they would have learn something from this competition and be better for the upcoming competitions to come. Mark my words, they will be back. In aniway, Im sure everyone, be it the spectators or the participants must have had a lot of fun on that day. Everyone's still a winner at the end of the day, so let's just shake hands and move on to the next upcoming competition now. " Biar lawan, atas stage jer. Lepas tu, sume kawan kawan. Betol taq? Hehehe." So, yesterday was the start of my FYP project with CAG. Coming into my third year now in RP, this is where the real 'deal' starts to kick in. I can literally feel the pressure even before starting on the project. It does not help that the school chose to eat up into our holidays and start on the FYP project earlier, which basically means lesser free times holidays and frequent visits to the Changi AIrport. Yeahballs, I can foresee myself having to go to the Airport to work on my project, every single day. Boooo. Well, not complaining though. At least, I wont be too free to think about all these... lost love bullshits and focus solely on getting my FYP done and ultimately, push up my freaking grades. Everyone has to go through it, and it's my turn now. I will really have to decide carefully whether I would want to commit both to chuchu's participation in upcoming competitions to come and my FYP, or to take a break from my passion, for a while. Either way, I guess the time has come for me to prioritise on which matters to me in the long run. I will seriously have to consider about this. And yeah, it does not help that my ankle chose to get swollen today. Yeahballs, the return of the gout attack. It is really, really fucking painful right now to even walk properly that I have to limp everywhere I go. I do hope that this pain would go away soon, I have a lot of travelling that needs to be done tomorrow. Sigh. Cepat cepat lah baik, wahai kakiku yer. ohwell, shit happens dont they? Till my next post friends. salams. |
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