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 People don't keep journals for themselves. They keep them for other people, like a secret they don't want to tell, but they want everyone to know. I don't own any of these pictures unless I state them. All photos and quotes on this blog are the properties of the respectful owners.Anyone wishing for their works to be credited please contact me via formspring or the tagboard itself. thank you. |
posted on Monday, August 2, 2010 @ 5:40 PM | back to the top.
The best thing about me is you.
 "Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must. Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love. And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes... you get it back and live happily ever after." "You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel." "I'm hurting so bad inside, I wish you could see. I'm struggling to be someone that isn't even close to me." " Never say goodbye when you still want to try. Never give up when you still feel you can take it. Never say you don't love a person when you can't let go." Maybe i'm just thinking too much, or maybe there is really something going on. But the signs are not good. I dont want to feel sad, im tired of the sleepless nights. Sometimes I wonder, why do I feel like im the only one trying to hang on here? I just want you to know that these things are taking its toll on me. Im still holding on. Yes I still am. But please, just don't hurt me. "When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other guys. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you." posted on Thursday, July 29, 2010 @ 11:31 PM | back to the top.
uncle syai? sounds so old.
I've become an uncle! and my anak sedare is so cute, just like me when i was a baby. =_______="  Alhamdulilah, Kak Lala safely gave birth to a cute babygirl yesterday. COngratulations Kak Lala and Hendra! 
posted on Friday, July 23, 2010 @ 11:22 AM | back to the top.
memories taken away.
So yesterday marks the last UT2 for me. Am glad it is finally over, but i have UT3 to worry later on. In the meantime, i just cannot wait for the holidays to come. OP and ECD UT was manageable for me, Aerodynamics was surprising easy, so i hope i can clear these 3 modules. Statistics UT, every students' worst nightmare, was OKAY. Hahahaha. i hated this module to the core, particularly because i feel the Faci really dont know how to teach its students. Ive already failed my UT1 stats, so i really had no choice but to really study. I don't want to spend another semester repeating the bloody module. With the UT2 now done, im patiently waiting to see how i'm gonna score for it. So wish me luck, people. thanks to this dude right here, that I'm able to understand stats and the other modules. and Lemme tell you, he's one smart kid okay, always willing to teach and share his Excel template everytime during UTs. youknow, it is always good to have '2facis' in class for us to refer to. So thanks bro, for all your help all this while. I may need your help again in the future, when UT3 is coming nearer. hahaha.. Okay, done with that. Oh, did I mention that I got to meet ♥ after sucha loooooooong time? haha. Well, it was really nice that i finally met her, albeit companying her for her training yesterday. I really missed ♥ badly, just hope she knows that. Will be going down to support her and dhiya' in PSR tomorrow. So all the best guys! have fun on stage! :) Well speaking of PSR teringat kembali time PSR '08 where chuchu's savoured victory for the first time ever. Too bad for this PSR, we're not able to 'defend' our title, since we're already involved in Perdana 2010. Or else, I feel we'll go all out for this competition as well. Ohwells. And speaking of chuchu, I have decided... on resting for a period of time. After what has happened at the recent Perdana 2010, I would want to think twice, or even thrice before committing myself to the future competitions ever again. I dont feel my commitment is bing appreciated by the leaders, and the what you call them 'starkarat' of the group, I have had enough already. So, I feel I deserved my break now that the Perdana 2010 is over. And that would most probably mean I am not turning up for this sunday and the next kompang show. Sorry tok, sorry bros. I know some chuchu's might be reading this, but its okay. I just need to recharge myself. I dont like how things were being done, the people, the selection systems and all during the Perdana, and now that it is over, I will want to think it over carefully before committing to future competitions, because I really do not want to go through what i had, again. And Mak ton texted me yesterday night saying that she has already surrendered the keys to the HDB people yesterday. I dont know why they want the keys so much, i thought of going to visit neneq's place this sunday, for the last time. But.. ='( that's it for today, people. posted on Saturday, July 17, 2010 @ 11:28 PM | back to the top.
and i'd still miss you.
Just got home from visitting nenek's place in yishun. will that be the last time I'm ever gonna step into the house again? Most probably so. Mak ton says the HDB people coming next week for the keys hand over. Wanted to take pictures of the house so that at least i have something to look at if i miss nenek. but seeing just how empty the place is now, i really couldnt bring myself to take the pictures. I still secretly hope that the house will not be sold. but i know its not possible. It is already too late. :( That's it for today, people. posted on Sunday, July 11, 2010 @ 11:42 PM | back to the top.
phew!
 I'm finally done with Perdana 2010. Sad to say, chuchu only managed the consolation prize and without any individual placings. But it is really okay. Being in the Finals was the only thing that matters. So I can say that the whole journey has been quite an enriching experience for myself. To be among the Top Giants of dikir, fighting it out for the honours, I must say the experience is so much different as compared to the other competitions i have ever been involved in. The tension, the nervousness, the excitement etc. So yeah. Frankly speaking, I was being quite emotional, as we were getting ready, backstage. Hahahaha. Why? because I told myself I was doing it for my late granny, and how i wished she would be there among the audience to watch me. I remembered clearly, during the Perdana 08 semifinal (we didnt managed to make it through to the Finals that year), I went to her place straight after the results were announced, and she was the one who consoled me. She too used to say this, "Abang main dikir barat nih, tak pernah pun nenek nampak cucu aku ni masuk tv? Kalau abang ade chan kan masuk tv, bilang samer nenek! nenek mesti beli ticket support abang!" I just laughed it out, and just iyerkan ajer. hahaha. That was the reason why i felt really dissapointed back then in perdana 2008 because i really wanted to be in the Finals, so that my granny can come and support me. Sekarang nih pulaq, dapat masuk Finals, nenek dah tak ader. But its okay. that's life after all. haha. im sure she must be happy now that her cucu may get to be on tv after all, hopefully. Heh! :)  Here are the winners for perdana 2010. 1st: Yenbo Je 2nd: Kelana Purba 3rd: Andika 1st: Wahana Deksu 2nd: Srikandi Tiara Widjaya Juara Terbaik: D'Tour Karut Terbaik: Andika Paluan Terbaik: Kelana Purba Kesenian Terbaik: Keris Awok-Awok terbaik: Yenbo Je Senikata Terbaik: Wahana Deksu Congratulations to all the winners. And to the rest of the teams, im sure we did put in our very best effort didnt we? So well done Finalists!  That's me posing with the consolation trophy. Heh! consolation pun consolation lah, dapat 500bucks pun dah kire oraite jugak lah tu. must not be greedy okay! heheh. Aniway, thank you ♥ for coming down to support. Really appreciate it that you were there, wearing the company Tshirt even though you were in a different contigent. Hehe! thank you ♥! and yarh, thank you to Mai jugak, for coming down. appreciate it so much. alright, i guess im done with my post for today. Ohyah! And guess what? the kutukan and all those nonsense are back! tak habis habis name CDM diburukkan. Don't know what to say anymore. Buat ni, kate kiter ikut si dekni, buat macam tu, orang kate kiter ikut si dektu. macam mana nih? whatever it is, We just can't please everyone at the same time, true? Check out megaperdana2010.blogspot.com guys, you'll be amazed at all those really harsh comments they have. ini ker, perangai anak anak melayu kiter? sigh. *shakes head* OP UT2 is tomorrow, and i good luck to me. posted on Thursday, July 8, 2010 @ 11:02 PM | back to the top.
the pressure is on.
I just can't wait for this week to be over. Left with just 2 more days before the Perdana Finals. Intensive trainings every single day. It'll be close to 2am by the time i reach home from these trainings, and i have school early in the morning. that explains why i have been so shagged in class and the frequent partialling. Nevermind. Last punyer ah, after that imma take long leave from dikir barat. Then i'll have time for studies, for GNKs, for ♥.  Will be away until im done with my Finals alright. Too tired for me to update uh people. Just wish the best for my team okay. and to the Finalist group competing this saturday, Good Luck! and oh.. I know im 45 minutes early, but ohwells.  Happy 2nd monthsary ♥! More to come okay, baby? Wo ai ni! =) posted on Wednesday, June 30, 2010 @ 12:54 AM | back to the top.
cracks.
This is exactly how I'm feeling right now  Sad + Confused + Dazed + Angry = ______________ ? An emotion which even I myself cannot describe exactly.  Yes, many times you've told me, you want me to _____ you. and that i lack _____ in us. but how am i supposed to _____ you, when this keeps happening most of the time? And i don't really expect much from you, from us. Have you guys been in this situation where "Kalau tak cakap, kater dah tak ambil kisah.. Kalau tegur sikit, nanti gadoh.." ? Have you? That's why i'm choosing to keep mum and let things as it is. because i believe, We will find a solution, if we really mean something to each other. "You get worried easily." "You are too protective." "You don't trust the friends that i hang out with." I'm sorry... that I worry too much. I'm sorry... that I am so protective of you. I'm sorry... if you think i dont trust you. I'm sorry... if you have to talk to me every night just so i can hear your voice before i go to sleep. I'm sorry... for everything that you think im lacking. Above all, i'm sorry... if I love you, too much. posted on Saturday, June 26, 2010 @ 11:13 PM | back to the top.
angkat time!
A quick one this time round. For this post, imma share what some of my friends wrote about me over in facebook. Okay go! Atin's..  Adan's..  Bea's..  Mai's..  Syaa's..  Mud's..  and last but not least, siti's..  So to those who do not know me personally, you can see just how "GREAT" i am, judging by what my friends have to say about me. HEHEHE! thank you kawan kawan! sayang koraaaaaaang! =) posted on Sunday, June 20, 2010 @ 5:24 PM | back to the top.
selamat hari ayah!
Happy Father's Day, ayah! Though i may not say or show it that often, you have really been a great father, to a son a buddy i can joke around with and a companion when it gets really bored at home and you start doing all those lame jokes.  you've been a great father, really. thank you, ayah. =) and to all the fathers in the world, here's to you. okay side-tracked a bit. i didnt realise she posted this, only after recently. thank you for this, i too miss the whole lot of you guys!  posted on Thursday, June 17, 2010 @ 7:33 PM | back to the top.
yoooooouuuuuuteeeeeees dah bis!
 I'm finally done with my UT1 modules! Can finally breathe a hugh sigh of relief now that it is over. Aerodynamic UT was manageable, but then i have a feeling i would do badly for Statistic and Avionics. Ohwells. fcuk that! I shall worry about it when the results are out. heh! Ohwells, Now that im done with my UT1, the next UT will start in 2weeks time, so i reaaaaaaaaaaally have to buck up, like serious shit, if i dont want to end up repeating the module, that is. And i shall now commit my time to dikir training back! its been one week i did not turn up for training, because of the dumb UT I had to revise for. I hope there is traning tomorrow, i kind of miss clapping hands with the rest. Hah! cannot believe im actually saying that. Nevermind. Perdana Finals coming, no time to waste liao! and oh! I want this DVD baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadly, can? ohwells, I hope ♥ will buy this. So sayer boleh pinjam. HEHE! =) Faster come back home lah awak! lamer ni tao tunggu! that's all for today everyone. Until next time! |
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