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posted on Tuesday, November 16, 2010 @ 6:54 PM | back to the top.
Welcome to my Life.
Welcome To My Life. I used to look forward to after school, where either I'll be meeting up that someone, or I'll be having my dikir trainings. It used to be all so happy and sweet; because I'm actually doing something which I loved to do and don't mind that long journeys whatsoever.Well I Used to do all this. Fast forward to today, my life has the same routine over and over again; wake up, go to school, study, finish school, back home, pray, revise and then turn in for the night. The same old mundane routine every single day. It feels a little strange how lonely I feel the moment I reached home. Its like as though I can do something more exciting than having these routines now. Life for me has never been the same, to be honest. And I know it will never be just like how I was even before that darkest episode in my life. Am trying to move on still, and I hope it can get better in the future InsyaAllah. At least I can see a few positives coming out from this episode. for a start, ever since that day we broke up, I'd started to pray and all. Although I am actually embarrased to point this out, cause I know I should have like, done this ages ago. but its a start for me nevertheless, Alhamdulilah. And I've been paying much more attention to my studies now. Staying focus in class throughout the day, doing the excel and all, and then revising at home for UTs. I'll make it a point to be in class on time now, so that I wont get downgraded just because of a late attendance. In the past, I didnt really cared much about these sort of things, but now I do. I see myself as a different person now. Though I cant possibly be the old syai that people used to know, I'm trying to adjust myself to be a new me, and be more matured in my thinking this time. It's not easy to start off initially, let me point this out, and I don't want to risk the enormous effort that I've put it by constantly being reminded of the past. These are things which I dont have any control of, and the only thing I can do now is to keep on praying I'll get to see the light at the end of the tunnel, soon. And an anonymous friend of mine, I guess, ask me this question on formspring. Thanks a lot aite, whoever you are. Feel free to ask me there too okayy friends, if you wish to be anonymous. My formspring's kinda dead by the way. "somehow, whenever youre in a r/s it doesnt work out, or it doesnt last long. what do you think is the reason for this? do you think the reason/fault lies within yourself? or otherwise? For instance, the one that really made you cry all day long, all night long, pondering why must it happened and what could have been done to not let it happened, basically, in terms of your recent or past relationships simply said." "Ermm, impacted my life so much so that.. I'm actually still living in the past? And its so effing difficult for me to just forget that someone special and to move on with my life now. She'd impacted me so much that.. I still tear every now and then when the good, bad memories we shared together, comes flashing back. It impacted me so much that I now try to avoid the best I can, going down to bedok, sengkang and other relevant places just because I'll be stuck with those memories, and I'll be back to square one in terms of trying to picking up myself back.And the worst part is, Imma have to forgo doing something which I loved so much just so I can avoid bumping into her. Yes, that's how much she impacted my life. I hoped I did answer your question now. =/" "Wow, that is so saddening, it must be hard on you, i'm aware that you have so much passion in dikir . However so, be strong my dear, for you are still young . Take as much time as you want . I hope you will find your right one in years to come . Take care." Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone, may you be in the best of health. Assalamualaikom. Labels: you don't know what it's like to be like me. |
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