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posted on Wednesday, September 1, 2010 @ 12:25 AM | back to the top.
Its not the end, kan? please, i dont want it to be.
First of all, I apologise for privating my blog. I'm the kind of person who dont believe in privatising one's blog, because I feel that, blogging is the place where one write down about their daily updates, feelings, activities and whatnots. So, if you feel like writing it down, but choose not to let anyone see because you want to make it a private thingy, then it defeats the purpose of having an online journal totally. But ohwells, to each his own. Others may have a different view on this, so I shall respect that.It seems things are going much more worst than I feared. TOday, the girl I loved so much wants to call it quit. She no longer wants to continue this relationship, and to be honest I am still shell-shocked upon knowing about it. That's the main reason why I'm privatising my blog, at least for the moment. I just don't want her to read my post for her, yet I have to write something to while my time away, lest I'm gonna think about what has happened. I could write down the whole incident that has happened prior to this breakup, but it's gonna take me the whole night, but I choose not to, because of the fact that I respect her and I still love her no matter what. I'm at a lost to do anything right now. you know, the feeling of trying to do something, like texting her or calling her to salvage the situation, but yet you know now is not the right time to actually do that since both party is still not rationally ready yet? I don't know but I want to think that she did say about breaking up, in a moment of anger. Yes, i hope she does not mean everything that she has said. I am crossing my fingers now, and hope that things will be okay in the next few days. Please. Yes, I have my own fault too. I got advices from Arep, my bro and hopefully kak Farah. Thanks bro for being there, to listen to my craps and all. Aku tak tahu aper nak buat, kalau kao tak datang tady.Thank you very much. I just cannot accept that she's leaving me, because I loved her, too much in fact. To you, Please baby, Do know im tearing now as im writing this post. I'm not being mushy over here, But you already made me fall deeply in love with you. The thought of you not being with me anymore, and that you in the arm of another guy, kills me. Imagine how i'd felt when I read your latest blog post. Niat syai nak tegur you balek, nak baik2 semula, and then I read those hurtful post. But its okay. I realised, i'm no angel myself. I must have my faults too. And i want to change, but you never tell me where I go wrong in our relationship. Now, Im just waiting for the both of us to cool down, to think carefully, what's the best for the both of us. Im pretty clear for myself; the first day I decided to be with you, I told myself that I want to be with you, and only you. And that has never change. Please, I hope you dont mean whatever you have just said. but in case you have proved your point to me, that it will never work out between us, Then I guess, It will really be the end for us. Yes, of course I will be sad, but I must not be selfish towards you. Bertepok sebelah tangan pun, takda gunanya. I will be ready physicaly and mentally, when you're ready to talk to me. If it is really the end for us, then... thank you shida, for being a part of my life. At least, there was a girl who would love me unconditionally and let me be a part of her life. I thank you for showing me what love is. I thank you for letting me love somebody. I thank you for the happy times as well as the sad times with you. Thank you very much shida. =') I'll let time heal everything. Amin. |
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