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posted on Monday, May 9, 2011 @ 12:00 AM | back to the top.
12th, could have been.
 ' I miss you. It's undeniable. I can try to avoid it as much as I want, but I cant help aching to have you back whenever you vaguely cross my mind. The worst part is that you don't miss me back. I wouldn't be surprised if I never even for once crossed your mind. Why don't you? What we had was great. I want to run back to you so badly and confess everything I feel, but I know it's gonna be useless, 'cause nothing will change. And you won't care. And now the only thing left for me to do is sit here and gruellingly wait for this pain to pass. ' So I told myself if I could just hang on for a little while more.. then one day, maybe just one day, she'll see just how much she means to me. Just how do I get better from here, when I thought I had the best in the past? One year ago, I was the happiest guy alive. I thought I finally found the one who could walk this road together. Promises were made and love was in the air. And till today, I'm still very much in love with that one girl who gave me that opportunity that no other girls did. In honest truth, I didnt expect myself to have that same feelings for that girl after so long. Well, I didnt expect that I could hold on this long even though shit happens 8 months back. Fvckyeah, people has been asking and wondering just what makes her that special, I swear I didn't know how to answer that question. I just cannot seem to erase all the memories of us. No matter how hard I try, it's something I cannot do. Maybe that's just it. Fast forward to 9th of May 2012, would I still be this way, still very much in love with her? I don't know, and I don't like this. It hurts to love when I cannot even tell what I really feel. I get jealous even when I know I have no right to feel that way. I just want a few minutes of her, but I know I am in no position to demand for it. Though my heart is breaking in silence, I'd still continue to love. Because somehow in this hurtful love, there is still hopes of having simple moments with her even if it means being just a friend. A friend. No matter how hard I try to get over awaq, I'd still have feelings for you. And thats one of the hardest truth which I can never deny. I'd still remember the way things used to be and how they are now. Do you? And sometimes, I do feel I want everything to be how it used to be and time is supposed to heal my pain, but it's not that easy when we're dealing with affairs of the heart. This is precisely why even though we have been apart for all this while, I still can't help but wonder, how your life is because we used to be so close and my heart beats a little faster everytime I think of you. Which I can't help but wonder, have you ever thought of me awaq? )'= Despite everything that has unfold, I sincerely thank you for the opportunity to shower you with all the love that I could possibly give. I apologise for the times I made you cry, sad, or angry back then. Just thinking about the events in the past together with you is able to make me smile and sometimes laugh to myself. And I hope when I finally get to be over awaq and move on to another girl, I'll work on my flaws so that I can be a better person not only for the one I would eventually fall for, but for myself as well. The mistake I made in my previous relationship was to love you more than myself, which I have learnt now.  Wherever you are awaq, right now... and if you happen to read all this awaq, trust me. awaq tetap bintang hati Syai. Let me be this way, I'll find a way to get over you. I don't know how, but I will keep trying. Just don't treat me like an option, when you have been my top priority all this while. It could have been our 1st anniversary together, and I cannot help it but to smile to myself. Missing you, awaq. ('= |
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