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posted on Monday, March 7, 2011 @ 12:39 AM | back to the top.
and it all came back tonight.
Today, one of my dikir friend texted me. We were initially talking about few random stuffs when suddenly it became that topic. I was trying to avoid it, but it was useless. And it hurts to know some stuff that I didnt expect. And this text message really hit me hard; "Look, I strongly believe everything happens for a reason. And I believe if you guys are meant for each toher, you guys will be together. You are putting yourself in a spot when your daily life sucks without her by your side. Have you ever thought of how she is? She don't even think about you Syaiful. What more, I dont even think she cares for you. It's been months syaiful, MONTHS. How long are you going to continue like this? You're not giving yourself a chance to enjoy life as it is." Yes it hit me hard, totally. I dont need anyone to tell me those things that I have noticed for myself way back. I know she does not care about me anymore, and I know it has been months. And I've got no one to blame but myself for being trapped in this shithole. So, what do I have to do to really forget about her then? I really am not sure. I have done almost every possible thing that I could to get her out of my mind, so what's left for me to do? My friend advice me to stop thinking about her, that's the first step towards moving on. I tried though, and Im still trying. I'm not asking you to be how we were before, it's just that this silence is killing me a little bit more every single day. Probably, there is no more 'syai' in your life by now, but I just hope you know that just one day.... we'll get to talk. I dont think it's too much to ask for, is it? Just y'know, update about life and all, just so I know how you're doing over there and not having to keep wondering. Aaaah, fuck this. I don't think you drop by any longer, you're too busy enjoying life to even care about someone from your past anyway, right? Maybe, its just me. Maybe I just fell for the wrong girl. I don't know. I cant deny I'm still very much in love with that girl, up till today. Judge me all you want, I won't deny this feelings Im having deep inside. And I freaking miss her, a lot. You may have given up on me back then, I'm not going to give up on us that easily. Janji yang dilafazkan harus dipegang. Selagy nadi belum terhenti, Syai akan tetap bertahan. salams. |
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