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posted on Friday, October 1, 2010 @ 1:45 AM | back to the top.
those words were, lies?
"Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along." well, guess what? I am still alive. Maybe it does not matter to her anymore, whether am I still alive or dead by now. It has already been one week, one day since that night, and honestly I've never managed to pick myself up since then. One week, one day of pure hell, and counting. I'm really sorry for having to trouble my close friends every single night. Never has there been a night where I'm actually at home resting, cause I just dont want to. Everytime i have nothing to do, my mind will start to wander to and think about all the 'what ifs'. What else am I supposed to do, now? I've done almost every possible things that I can think of to make me forget her. But it is easier said than done. Everywhere I go, everything I do, to the songs that I listen to; Its all these little little things that make me remember, all the happy times we used to had. So tell me, what other ways must I do now? I cannot accept the fact that why it is that, it is so damn bloody hard for me to let go of her, still suffering up till now... and yet it seems that she is having the time of her life with her new found freedom? And if I can have that.. sense of guilt, trying to socialise with new girl friends and all, why is it that you are able to tell me straight to my face.. that you're actually getting back closer to that guy currently? This was not what I expected from you. No, this was not how I planned it to be. I gave my all into this. I've said I know it was my mistakes, I had even plead to be given that one final chance. And yet you still have not reply my text message to you, up to this very second. Although your actions really hurt me, I still hope that one day, Insyaallah you will give me that chance I craved for. I know, I am a useless guy. Useless for the fact that I'm still here, crying for someone who does not want any of this anymore. I feel so betrayed and alone right now. Like how you always tell me, it really sucks to be me. |
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